Beat Psychology: May 2005

WTF!!!!!!!

this is insane!!!!!!!!!!!

my mum went crazy, and started yelling at me for no rhyme or reason!!!

jus found out from dad today that she's angry cos she disapproves of my choice of boyfriend!!??

the joke is this...i dun have one!!!!

jus cos i went out with this guy who've been particularly sweet to me doesn't mean i'm in a relationship with him!!!!!! she just conveniently jumped to that conclusion!!!!!!!!

and even if so....she has no right to insult my fren....i'm so angry...this is !#$%^&*#$%*# =(

mum...will you please be more mature!!! SIGH.....

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met my eldest bro on msn....decided to tell him bout my horrific experience with mum...ended up having a good chat...this is weird...weird....anyway this is the clip...it's a bit long...but if u have the patience and time, you'll have a better idea what my bro is like...

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
yo bro

facw says:
yep

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
free?

facw says:
sort of

facw says:
wat's up?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
tell u something crazy/ maddening/ joke

facw says:
sure
anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
yest and today mum's been screaming at me

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
and for the slightest things

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
obviously picking on me la

facw says:
like?
anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
normally she'll jus say me a bit if i dun pack my bed

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
pack my room

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
and others

facw says:
uh huh

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
but then these days she's jus yelling

facw says:
so, she's in a bad mood nowadays. what did you do?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
not exagerating

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
then she brought up things like "dun think you turn 21, i can't control you...yada yada"

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
then yest i went out

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
when i came home she went crazy again

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
asked dad wat's wrong

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
he said she dun like my choice of boy friend!?!?!?!?!?

facw says:
boy friend?

facw says:
you have a boyfriend?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
the joke is i dun!!!!!

facw says:
are you sure

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
she jumped to the conclusion that i haave one

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
i swear

facw says:
then tell her you don't have a boyfriend

facw says:
you sure you don't have a boyfriend

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
i told dad to tell her

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
can't be bothered to quarrel with her

facw says:
huh huh huh, have or don't have

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
NO

facw says:
this is the wrong attitude

facw says:
heck care attitude adds fire

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
what can i do???

facw says:
do you understand?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
she was yelling at me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
if i open my mouth to say something

facw says:
i know what you are tryint to do. don't care right? it won't work

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
it'll jus be worse

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
she's being unreasonable lor

facw says:
no, the way you do it is not good.

facw says:
i know how you do it

facw says:
i don't like it too

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
if i'm at fault i'll reason with her or something

facw says:
hai

facw says:
do you understand what i'm saying?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
u do know there's no way u can talk to her when she's screaming

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
i know

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
but i'm not at fault

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
she's picking on me cos she jumped to the conclusion

facw says:
sometimes, your 'bo chap' attitude is really really bad.....makes things worse

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
i didn't bo chap lor

facw says:
yes you do

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
after she's done screaming

facw says:
you done it to me before

facw says:
so i know

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
i went to pack my room

facw says:
it's not nice.

facw says:
heh heh, packing up your room is a good habit

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
i only do that when u guys get unreasonable

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
my room is not messy to begin with

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
jus that too meny presents

facw says:
when are we unreasonable?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
dunno where to put them

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
like controlling me for the wrong reasons?

facw says:
nah,.....dun have la. all the right reaons. but nevermind

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
like this time around mum's obviously unreasonable

facw says:
sure?

facw says:
neal in?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
she dun even know my fren

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
saw him once

facw says:
i got to seek a second opinion

facw says:
the guy called Sam? the christian guy?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
no another guy

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
insult my fren, and insult me too lor

facw says:
well, i don't like Sam. I don't like people who walk around carrying a bible for all to see (i think he was holding a bible right?)

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
she didn't even bother, she jus assumed, then she start being mean to me

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
that's unreasonable

facw says:
me?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
it's not him

facw says:
hahahaha

facw says:
did i remember correctly? Sam was carrying a bible, right?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
yea

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
i know who u are talking about

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
but its not him

facw says:
so not bad, my memory is intact.

facw says:
anyway, it must be one of the people at the chalet

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
whatever

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
yeap most definitely

facw says:
so?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
she even went to the extent of readin my letters

facw says:
wat happened?

facw says:
ohhh, love letters

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
no!!!!!!!!!

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
it cam with the gifts

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
those i ask her to take home for me

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
how can she do that!?!?

anybody interested to watch summer storm?? says:
just because she's mum!!???

facw says:
how's she now?

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
back to normal

facw says:
anyway, don't come home too late when you go out

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
think dad told her already

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i know i know

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
there's really no diff now that i'm 21

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
still have to put up with her nonsense

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
she made it blatantly clear

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
won't forget how she yelled that at me

facw says:
no, seriously. 21 or not is not the issue here

facw says:
you should be home by 12 everyday

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
...

facw says:
yeah. the sad fact is that you are a girl

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i only pub once in a blue moon

facw says:
that's what i've always said

facw says:
21, 15, 30....ocme home early. not too late

facw says:
it's not fair, but you are a girl

facw says:
this is my stand

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i understand your concerns

facw says:
well, mum being unreasonable is another issue

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
but sometimes

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
jus try to loosen up a bit?

facw says:
what so weird about chatting with me?

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
weird la

facw says:
hahahaha

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
face to face

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
prob end up ww3

facw says:
bengawan, solo

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
huh?

facw says:
listening to music, haha

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
...

facww says:
don't worry about mum

facw says:
she went crazy when she found out about May

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i know

facw says:
so, i understand

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
it's amazing how she does it

facw says:
well, i'm a guy. not so much to worry about. you know what i mean?

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i call this family stigma

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
SIGH

facw says:
at that time, the issue with me was more that i would listen to may only and not to her

facw says:
hahaha

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
wow

facw says:
but worry not, when neal gets a girlfriend, i'm sure mum will not go ballistic

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
cold war

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
hahaha

facw says:
it happened to me.

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
she'll go hilarious

facw says:
it will happen to you

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
...

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
unfair

facw says:
i'm the elder son, she was afriad of 'losing' me

facw says:
you are a girl. full stop

facw says:
: )

facw says:
that;s life

facw says:
neal is a different story

facw says:
hahaha

facw says:
i should intro a china girl to him. then mum will go ballistic. oh..i'm bad

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
lol

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
she'll scream at you so bad

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i'll go ballistic too

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
anyway neal bro so "nice"

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
you know, easy to bully

facw says:
hey. dun say bad things about your brother

facw says:
and dun say bad things about your mother

facw says:
especially in front of others.

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
of course not la

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i'm not saying bad things bout neal

facw says:
i think i have been guilty of that.............. : (

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i jus say he's really nice

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
yea

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
bet you painted a horrific pic of ur sis

facw says:
no la

facw says:
well. is mum having cold war with you?

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
nope

facw says:
anyway, she's very good at cold war. you can't win

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
hahaha

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i know

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
she trains my patience

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i have to pinch myself not to retaliate

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
...ok joking

facw says:
hai

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
joking

facw says:
so, you are sure you don't have a boyfriend?

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
if i ever have one

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
i'll let u know k

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
besides

facw says:
ok

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
ur sis is not that attractive la

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
btw

facw says:
yes?

i'm chatting with my bro....weird.... says:
will you happen to go places that sell jade bangles??

facw says:
jade bangles...maybe

facw says:
you want one?

facw says:
wat type?

yeap...continued the conversation bout what type of bangles....hahaha....
you see...i'm not kidding when i say bro's over protective...sigh....

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

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hmmm....ok la...jus did it for fun...wat are your colours?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

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summer storm

this is really weird....i was reading the synopsis of summer storm and tot, hey now this is interesting...until i saw that it's R21...then i stop short....

i know i'm of legal age already...but the idea of watching R21 in cinemas ...i'm jus not used to it...
almost as if i'm not used to my new identity....weird....

feel stupid to think this way...but can't seem to help it....duh....

so is anybody interested to watch summer storm?? hee

i found a great place to chill!!

and that is mox bar!!

absolutely love the place...cos it's cosy...music's not too loud (so you can chit chat with frens)...no cover charge...they serve delivious home made chocs....and there are cute guys!!!! but of course there's a teenyweeny catch....shall not say it here...you go find out yourself...teehee hee =P

went down to mox for the first time on sat, day after the chalet thingy...
by then i've not had proper sleep for the entire week...and i'm kinda dehydrated from all that booze...but heck la...now's the time to play!!!!!!!

really love the place...had a great time chatting with wendy and jy...time really flies...we are all 21...where does life lead on from there...i really have no clue...

full monty! on the bed...alan, dong, ben and gabriel

alan drunk, dongli posing

my b'day cake!! it's good

my 1st bouquet of flowers!! so pretty

melt down

making chocolate truffles for those coming to my party...

wenzhang and latha...he drank 7 cans of beer and half a bottle of wine...

claud!! ellen, alvin, ru and boonhow...playing bridge

the guys playing heart attak!!!! making the most noise too...hurhur

darren, jy, latha, wenzhang...jc frens...crazy pple. i love them!!!

dad's teaching az, darren, wenzhang and my bro... play mahjong

SIM gang...great bunch of pple

it's all finally over.
the exams, the mugging, my birthday celebration, the staying up late to make chocolates, the worrying about whether my frens would enjoy themselves...

and i'm officially 21 ... this jus feels wierd...
i use to yearn to be 21 so that i can get the "freedom"...to do the things i wanna do, to stay out late...yada...but i realise that this is all superficial...
i jus wish time will stand still right now, so that things will remain the same...forever...

yest did a belated thingy at the chalet with my frens...i had a great time watchin my frens self entertain and me trying to entertain all of them

My 21st birthday

my parents are busy quarreling, arguing, stressing, about my birthday functions... (plural cos i've got one on the 21st with my relatives, and another on the 27th for my friends)

BTW, my actual birthday is on the 25th may. jus that due to the exams, i had to make a belated one...jus a side note....heeee.....

and though this sounds really unfillial, i'm happy with the way things are...

i guess they are not complaining that much either, cos it gives them something to do...
my mum's a housewife and my dad's currently out of job...so they are jus busy bustling around with the logistics and at the end of the day, they get to spend quality time together! they have to constantly get out of the house to go tampines book the chalet, then check out caterings online...yada yada...

well it's not like i dun do anything at all!! i chose the food, make certain decisions, call the people, i'm going to make the door gifts!! so you people better appreciate it k!!
oh and i chose my own cake, and will probably have to collect it myself...
plus i think i might have to organise the chalet event myself!!! how fun -_-

and all these in the midst of my exams!?!?!!!??

yea yea ok maybe i'm asking for trouble, but this is after all a family tradition...i jus wanna live it, do it, and not look back in regret...

pardon me but there's more whining....you can choose to leave this website now, no worries =)

well, i'll be having my marketing exam tomorrow and the following day i'll be having my law exam!!!!!??!?!? somebody save me!!

the more i study the more i feel unprepared...and the stupid old man who sets the marketing paper is so unpredictable!!!
lump all the topics together to set questions...make me feel so insecure...sob...

and as much as the law qns seldom change much, there are freaking law cases to rem!! weird and lenghty names are just no good to rem la.... more sobs....

plus the pms, the weather, certain people...i feel so damn melancholic...who cares about the exams!?!?!?!?

ok...back to the books... let's hope the chalet thing turns out fine....

the more you know what you want, and who you are, the less you let things upset you.

i'm not sure when i've become so cynical and pessimistic...but

i realise today...at the age of 21...that men's words so cannot be trusted...
i use to believe everything they say...in fact i use to believe everything that everyone says!
naive, gullible...that's me la...

not anymore...i guess being in the company with guys, is not that bad afterall...
makes one grow up...

i dunno when it started, but i find myself thinking alot about what some pple have been telling me and i realise, i'm beginning to doubt everything they say!
oh well...maybe when one's been hurt once too often, one learns to be more wary and try to protect herself...